God

The lost are found
the blind will see
The lame will walk
the dead will Live
and You our God, forever You will reign.

I have recently begun to use the phrase "more than my heart can hold," and it is reserved for those moments when I don't believe I can put into words what I think, feel, and believe at that moment. What this song makes me think of is more than my heart can hold.
Because I start with, "well, wouldn't that be nice?!" These things, sight being restored, life being renewed, we cry out for these things constantly, and it feels so much of the time to me that God only hesitantly fulfills them. It seems too often that our prayers for just these things go answered. And about when I'm thinking that, the guilt starts coming on thick, because God is perfect, so isn't it our job and our problem that things aren't this way? Isn't the only possible restoration for these things when we fix ourselves? Why would God ever choose to fix us before then?
And it seems like too much. Most days, I can't find my glasses, let alone a lost person. How can I lead them out of despair, when I only half-know the way myself?
But I know (in a way that is also more than my heart can hold, It is a knowing that begins based on belief, grows in experience, and is bound together by sheer faith) I know that is not God's intent, his plan for us, or this world. He knows and loves his people far better than that. I know that he wants only for us to allow him to fix it, and even that will he help us do, without ever compromising on his perfection. I know he holds our tears in his hand, and that our pain is His. I know that, when the song says "and you our god, forever, you will reign," the phrase is not connected to the previous one by accident. God's sovereignty is the root of our hope; his majesty is the source of our joy. He has power, honor, glory, and praise enough to accomplish all this, even with us working against him most of the time. And like the lyrics to this song, He is more than my heart can hold.